[ If Toudou could get away with just that and still get rewarded for it then maybe Maki didn't have to be as easy as he had been. Not that he was going around with his legs open for whomever, but he hadn't really been choosy. Though really everyone he'd slept with had been quite kind to him so it really wasn't that bad f a thing was it? ]
[ He didn't know that. You could buy your way home? He stares at these words for a long time, thinking over what they mean and what they mean for him. ]
I can't be with someone I know has feelings for someone else. It feels wrong to me. I don't care who it is or how important they are to me. It's wrong when they hit that point with someone else.
Arakita's feels are negated by how he came into my apartment upset by the fact the person he liked was in bed with someone else. Why should it be okay to be one of those people when he obviously can't handle it when it's the other way around?
Because I'm friends with him, and because I don't want to live with regret, I can't do anything like that.
[ It takes Makishima a long time to answer that wall of text. It hurts for a few different reason. Least of all that Maki feels as if he's lost someone else. That feeling is overridden by the feeling that he's the one being selfish again. He wasn't really respecting Toudou's feelings was he? ]
okay.
I'm sorry.
[ He felt like he was doing a lot of apologizing lately, but he couldn't help it. ]
[ It hurt for Toudou too. Makishima was easily the person he cared about most in this place, and it was a fact that wouldn't change. The fact they've met this point so early weighed on him. They shared one intimate moment and Makishima didn't want it to be the last, but he couldn't. He did lose Makishima and Arakita intimately.
It hurt, but Toudou was more than done with giving it 'space'. ]
Don' apologize for something you don't regret.
Anyway, I'll call you in the morning like always. Good night.
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There was your mistake and once with Arakita, but those were months ago.
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Have you gotten extra money?
[ If Toudou could get away with just that and still get rewarded for it then maybe Maki didn't have to be as easy as he had been. Not that he was going around with his legs open for whomever, but he hadn't really been choosy. Though really everyone he'd slept with had been quite kind to him so it really wasn't that bad f a thing was it? ]
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No? They give a lot of money in the first place. What would I do with extra?
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get home sooner.
There are ways home but the tickets cost a lot of money. Kinjou and I are trying to save what we can to get back home.
You probably need to have sex more.
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No.
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You have to do something!
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I can find new partners, but that will take time and I'm not worried about it.
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I'm still here you know!
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You LITERALLY have feelings for someone!
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...Besides, I told you I turned him down.
[ Partially because of shit like this. ]
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I'm talking about you.
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But it doesn't matter.
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I don't belong with Kinjou. You don't know that.
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It's not as if I can't care about other people too.
I don't want you to have to do this by yourself.
I bet Arakita feels the same.
We're friends.
We help each other.
[ All the same it should have made sense. After all the chances of Kinjou ever being with him again were slim to none now weren't they? ]
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I can't be with someone I know has feelings for someone else. It feels wrong to me. I don't care who it is or how important they are to me. It's wrong when they hit that point with someone else.
Arakita's feels are negated by how he came into my apartment upset by the fact the person he liked was in bed with someone else. Why should it be okay to be one of those people when he obviously can't handle it when it's the other way around?
Because I'm friends with him, and because I don't want to live with regret, I can't do anything like that.
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Not even you can change my mind on it.
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okay.
I'm sorry.
[ He felt like he was doing a lot of apologizing lately, but he couldn't help it. ]
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It hurt, but Toudou was more than done with giving it 'space'. ]
Don' apologize for something you don't regret.
Anyway, I'll call you in the morning like always. Good night.
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[ If Toudou didn't then Makishima would. Maybe they couldn't be intimate anymore, but losing him as a friend would hurt so much worse. ]