[VoiceMail] IC Contact for Tanagura

[irridescentspider]

"Sho! You've reached Makishima Yusuke, the Peak Spider of Sohoku! You know what to do, sho!"

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[irridescentspider]

THAT DOESN'T MEAN YOU AND I CAN'T STILL HAVE SOMETHING CASUAL!

...Besides, I told you I turned him down.

[ Partially because of shit like this. ]

[nemurerumori]

Do you have feelings or Hebi?

[irridescentspider]

That's not the point.

I'm talking about you.

[nemurerumori]

Answer the question, Maki-chan.

[irridescentspider]

Yes.

But it doesn't matter.

[nemurerumori]

It matters to me.

[irridescentspider]

Why?

[nemurerumori]

Because I can't be intimate with someone I know belongs somewhere else.

[irridescentspider]

I don't...

I don't belong with Kinjou. You don't know that.

[nemurerumori]

I know that, but that's not how you feel.

[irridescentspider]

...

It's not as if I can't care about other people too.

I don't want you to have to do this by yourself.

I bet Arakita feels the same.

We're friends.

We help each other.

[ All the same it should have made sense. After all the chances of Kinjou ever being with him again were slim to none now weren't they? ]

[nemurerumori]

I can't do that.

I can't be with someone I know has feelings for someone else. It feels wrong to me. I don't care who it is or how important they are to me. It's wrong when they hit that point with someone else.

Arakita's feels are negated by how he came into my apartment upset by the fact the person he liked was in bed with someone else. Why should it be okay to be one of those people when he obviously can't handle it when it's the other way around?

Because I'm friends with him, and because I don't want to live with regret, I can't do anything like that.

[nemurerumori]

It puts me at a disadvantage, but I'm not moving on it.

Not even you can change my mind on it.

[irridescentspider]

[ It takes Makishima a long time to answer that wall of text. It hurts for a few different reason. Least of all that Maki feels as if he's lost someone else. That feeling is overridden by the feeling that he's the one being selfish again. He wasn't really respecting Toudou's feelings was he? ]

okay.

I'm sorry.

[ He felt like he was doing a lot of apologizing lately, but he couldn't help it. ]

[nemurerumori]

[ It hurt for Toudou too. Makishima was easily the person he cared about most in this place, and it was a fact that wouldn't change. The fact they've met this point so early weighed on him. They shared one intimate moment and Makishima didn't want it to be the last, but he couldn't. He did lose Makishima and Arakita intimately.

It hurt, but Toudou was more than done with giving it 'space'. ]

Don' apologize for something you don't regret.

Anyway, I'll call you in the morning like always. Good night.

[irridescentspider]

Good night.

[ If Toudou didn't then Makishima would. Maybe they couldn't be intimate anymore, but losing him as a friend would hurt so much worse. ]