If the man I acknowledge more than any other and the person I like were in the same space, I'd get anxious like I do when someone else is interfering with our climb.
[ He hates that. He hates that so much. It wasn't a totally fair comparison since he cared nothing for any of the other racers, but it was close to how he felt it would be like. If the time ever comes, he'll find out for real. ]
[ If Toudou could get away with just that and still get rewarded for it then maybe Maki didn't have to be as easy as he had been. Not that he was going around with his legs open for whomever, but he hadn't really been choosy. Though really everyone he'd slept with had been quite kind to him so it really wasn't that bad f a thing was it? ]
[ He didn't know that. You could buy your way home? He stares at these words for a long time, thinking over what they mean and what they mean for him. ]
good lord
[ Red orange maybe, but whatever. Not like Maki was perfect with the hair dye after all. ]
So why can't I meet them?
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[ As hard to believe as it is. ]
Because there is no way I'm letting them try to steal you away or something else dramatic.
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You really think you'd hook up with someone who'd leave you for me?
I wouldn't do that to you.
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[ Toudou also feels things a lot deeper and heavier than Makishima does. ]
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Who said I was jealous?
I want you to be happy.
[ And now he's blushing at the other end of this phone thanks. ]
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[ He hates that. He hates that so much. It wasn't a totally fair comparison since he cared nothing for any of the other racers, but it was close to how he felt it would be like. If the time ever comes, he'll find out for real. ]
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[Come on you wouldn't take that seriously would you? Kinjou might...]
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[ Literally everyone else would take that seriously. See: Anyone who pays attention to Toudou at Hakone. ]
That reminds me, I met someone.
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...Who? You mean you're interested in them???
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He said I was cute and beautiful and that he'd want to see me racing you one day.
He could see why I was called Sleeping Beauty!
He praised and liked me so much that it was hard to deny him my radiant presence.
[ He "thinks" Natsume was affected, as if normal people would inflate his ego that much willingly. ]
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[ That was surprising all on its own but not entirely a bad thing either if Toudou was easing up a bit. ]
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We walked through the museum together and talked.
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[ And maybe because it's easier to ask this in text than in person... ]
have you had sex at all?
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There was your mistake and once with Arakita, but those were months ago.
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Have you gotten extra money?
[ If Toudou could get away with just that and still get rewarded for it then maybe Maki didn't have to be as easy as he had been. Not that he was going around with his legs open for whomever, but he hadn't really been choosy. Though really everyone he'd slept with had been quite kind to him so it really wasn't that bad f a thing was it? ]
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No? They give a lot of money in the first place. What would I do with extra?
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get home sooner.
There are ways home but the tickets cost a lot of money. Kinjou and I are trying to save what we can to get back home.
You probably need to have sex more.
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No.
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You have to do something!
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I can find new partners, but that will take time and I'm not worried about it.
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I'm still here you know!
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You LITERALLY have feelings for someone!
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...Besides, I told you I turned him down.
[ Partially because of shit like this. ]
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